A riveting story of a seemingly aimless young girl and the various connections she forms throughout her life. Nadia is a grief stricken girl trying to find her place in the world after her mother leaves her and her father behind by way of suicide. This selfish act committed by her mother leaves Nadia to figure life out for herself in a way that has dire consequences and becomes an ugly lurking thing in her world. Luke is a pastor’s son and Nadia’s first love. He’s a young man with dashed dreams trying to find an alternate path after his football career comes to an end. With football no longer a sure thing, he’s aimless as well. Their lives burst into each other in a ball of flames with their fire extinguished as fast as it began. As they move on in their lives, new connections are formed. Nadia becomes fast friends with Aubrey., a young woman so different than herself. With Aubrey she gains a beautiful and sisterly connection that gives her the familial feeling that was abrupted by her mother’s suicide. Luke forms a meaningful yet fleeting friendship that is both detrimental and necessary to bring purpose into his life. Will the passion of their youth, long ago extinguished, seep back in and destroy any semblance of a functional life?
I loved many things about this story. From the flawed characters seeking refuge and salvation within the walls of the Upper Room sanctuary, to it being a haven for some and a harness for others, to the searing eyes of the collective known as the Mothers, the story unfolded in a bold and beautiful way. I liked how sage advice was sprinkled throughout the story with both straightness and nuance. The fresh takeaways from age old advice was fantastic. So many aha moments throughout. Many excerpts stood out, such as, “They too hard. Soft things can take a beating. But you push somethin’ hard a little bit and it shatters. You gotta be a soft thing in love. Hard love don’t last.” Another excerpt that was arresting was, “She knew the what. She could guess the why. But the how of it all had been what eluded her. The how of any betrayal was the hardest part to justify, how the lies could be assembled and stacked and maintained until the truth was completely hidden behind them.” The latter excerpt was far reaching and was applicable to several instances within the story.
A constant cry in the story was the suicide of Nadia’s mother. I would have liked to know a bit more about her and what may have led her to her tragic end. What could have been so bad to cloud her view to the point of leaving her daughter behind? Even though I had lingering questions about certain events in the story, I was still left satisfied. I enjoyed Bennett’s writing style. I liked the fact that she trusted her audience to find the sweet spot for themselves. It left a lasting impression long after the story ended. I am still feeling this story in my bones which is the best gift an author can gift to a reader. I look forward to other works from this author.
Rating: 10/10